Goodbye for now.

mecka · Post by **mecka** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 4:46 am

This probably doesn't deserve its own thread but i don't really care anymore.

I'm dropping out of the scene and this forum for a while. I don't know how long. Possibly till New Years, possibly forever, maybe sooner if I can get myself sorted out.

Why? There is too much emotional trauma and too many bad memories associated with parties and going out for me. I've crashed and burned harder than I ever have in the last three months and I seriously can't take it. So much has gone right for me but none of the things I've worked hardest on and am so passionate about have. And every time I go out to a party or get mad at some random post on here the knife keeps twisting and twisting and pushing and cutting deeper and deeper. I am not laying blame on anybody, I just hurt too much to have a good time anymore.

This hasn't been an easy decision to come to. This scene and it's people have treated me better than anybody else in my entire life and I'm really sad to leave. Melbournebeats has been a method of venting, of having a laugh, and of escaping from the real world (almost). You people here... well you're all gems, each and every one of you (cept you bombjack, fuck you). You've all been witnesses to my life as it unfolds and some of you have helped me through some of the tougher parts. I thank you all.

What am I going to do? Sort myself out. I really need to be happy again, and am working hard to try and get back to that. It's incredibly difficult to be straight with people when I have to force every smile or laugh.

Some, if not most of you, will call me a drama queen or a crybaby for posting this... and i simply do not give a fuck. Those that know what has been happening to me will also understand my reasons for going.

I'll be lurking from time to time, probably every day for a while seeings as i'm hopelessly addicted to this forum.

If you've got my number, hit me up for a drink - i'm only happy to oblige. I need all the friends I can get right now.

I love drum and bass. I'll listen to it till the end of the earth if possible.

But I can't be part of this community right now.

Adieu.

Sustain · Post by **Sustain** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 6:18 am

mate, is this just because i beat you at pool tonight?

nah only kiddin, take it easier fella... you're obviously a top bloke. take care

almax · Post by **almax** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 8:22 am

Good luck with it Ollie, hope to see you in the near future with a REAL smile on yer dial, non of this faux stuff

mrj · Post by **mrj** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 10:01 am

Dude. Best of luck to you and call if you need. You know that your friends respect your decisions no matter what, and will be here once you fell like you are back on your feet again.

Respect

J

elysium · Post by **elysium** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 10:08 am

will miss ya on here ollie. Take care dude. Sometimes a clean break is really the best thing for it.

witty_pseudonym · Post by **witty_pseudonym** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 10:14 am

Big Ups to you Ollie. A true gem and one least deserving of so much pain. Was really cool to meet you (properly) last night, and I hope to catch you again when you're where you want to be.

Best of luck in you endeavours, emotionally and otherwise mate.

Tash.

Lizkins · Post by **Lizkins** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 10:20 am

Ollie!!!! I love ya babe and will be calling you for that coffee this afternoon....cos you would be lurking right now i would hope.

But i understand, shit gets too much and something has to give.

I'm nothing but proud of your strength to voice this out loud, it does truly take guts.

Will speak this arvo

xoxoxox

C.I.A. · Post by **C.I.A.** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 10:29 am

Ollie,

Will be in touch in the very near future. You are not alone.

gnat · Post by **gnat** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 10:38 am

Muchos respekt Ollie

The forum can be fun if you remember its place

Know the difference between friends and acquaintances

Hold onto those who make you feel taller.

Take those who don't with a grain of salt

Sending you strength and good vibes

Nat

deviant · Post by **deviant** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 10:49 am

A great man once said "You'll be right mate",

Good to see you doing what needs to be done to help yourself......

PahMaLa · Post by **PahMaLa** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 10:57 am

Though I've only met you once first impression of you was, what a cool dude with lightening feet!

Hope you all the best and that things get sorted out for you.

Little Evil · Post by **Little Evil** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 11:06 am

gnat wrote:Muchos respekt Ollie

The forum can be fun if you remember its place

Know the difference between friends and acquaintances

Hold onto those who make you feel taller.

Take those who don't with a grain of salt

Sending you strength and good vibes

Nat

Word to that Ollie - what Nat said. It's basically law in my world.
Hope you are ok mate?
Dude - your proabably one of the strongest minded people on here - you don't drink, you don't smoke, you don't do drugs.
It takes lots of strength to be able to accomplish that, while still remaining in a scene like this.
Take that on board, and use those those strengths in other area's.
Your an incredibly intelligent, youthful dude, with the world at your feet - no need to be so hard on yourself.

Totally understand why you would want to not post any more though.
I think lots of people are feeling the same about internet forums lately.

Anyway, really hope your ok mate.
And will see you soon.

Guyno · Post by **Guyno** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 11:10 am

mecka wrote: you're all gems, each and every one of you

You're the fuckin' gem Ollie. You always have me and I reckon alot of peeps on thsi forum in rofl mode. Much respect bud.

cha_chaos · Post by **cha_chaos** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 11:47 am

Good luck Oli, keep positive. Hope all works out.

Lil MiSbreaks · Post by **Lil MiSbreaks** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:32 pm

Take care Ollie. Shit in life is fucked, and I hope that you can get up and get up as we have too, and find happiness. Its worth searching for and the world WILL give you back what you deserve eventually. Sometimes it just takes too fucking long though

And i think this did deserve its own thread, youve been an integral part of this forum, in whatever way you like.

I also share my strength with you too.

Big ups to searching for a happy life.

ghetto kitty · Post by **ghetto kitty** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 2:41 pm

liz is right, it takes real guts to admit youve had enough, and its not serving you anymore.

good luck with finding your light...

respect..

bo ghetto

Post by **lynt** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 3:20 pm

So long dude, hope things sort itself out!

Keep real.

DBoy · Post by **DBoy** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 3:38 pm

Hope this thread makes you realise that there are a lot of people that respect you.
We are with you not against you, now you just got to be 'with' yourself not against.

Peace.

Charlie73 · Post by **Charlie73** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 4:29 pm

Thinking of you Ollie.

Take care and will see you when we see you.

Kisses

xoxo

flippo · Post by **flippo** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 4:46 pm

http://melbournebeats.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=3951

but who is going to have conversations via hardy face with me now?

Lizkins · Post by **Lizkins** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 4:51 pm

flippo wrote:http://melbournebeats.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=3951

but who is going to have conversations via hardy face with me now?

looking at that made me happy and sad

at least i gets to see Ollie this arvo

drew · Post by **drew** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 5:12 pm

things will turn upwards man!

Keep at it and youll be fine and through your experiences you will be a better person for it!

will have to keep in contact mang....been great talking to ya over the past month or two!!!

peace out bro!

LÃ³s Kasinoâ€” · Fri Oct 06, 2006 6:16 pm

all the best man! bokkie represent!

Post by **fooishbar** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 9:03 pm

hope things pick up for you dude. obviously haven't seen you in too long, but hope it's (relatively) soon.

Hardy · Post by **Hardy** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 9:21 pm

flippo wrote:http://melbournebeats.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=3951

but who is going to have conversations via hardy face with me now?

MWAHAHAHAHA! IT'S JUST YOU AND ME NOW BITCH!!!!

Bigups Ollie mate, you're a top dude and i'm honoured to be able to call you my friend. Was good to see you tonight, and I know you'll sort yourself out.
You know I always got your back.

Hardy · Post by **Hardy** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 9:48 pm

Citizen Smif wrote:
Hardy wrote:
flippo wrote:http://melbournebeats.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=3951

but who is going to have conversations via hardy face with me now?
MWAHAHAHAHA! IT'S JUST YOU AND ME NOW BITCH!!!!

Bigups Ollie mate, you're a top dude and i'm honoured to be able to call you my friend. Was good to see you tonight, and I know you'll sort yourself out.
You know I always got your back.
yup yup. me to.

but not in a gay way like tom.

xox

Bollocks. You're the biggest closet case i've ever met.

witty_pseudonym · Post by **witty_pseudonym** » Fri Oct 06, 2006 9:55 pm

^^

last night's 'moustache' effort was concrete evidence of this.

same o · Post by **same o** » Sat Oct 07, 2006 1:14 am

hey man have a good one.. giveus a call or come down to the restaurant

marcus · Post by **marcus** » Sat Oct 07, 2006 5:16 am

Been watching your movements on this forum for a while and have an idea of what you're going through. Hope you find a way to deal or rationalise a reason for what you're going through right now, it's not easy, but i'm sure you'll find something. Chat soon.

Mellogs · Post by **Mellogs** » Sat Oct 07, 2006 10:14 am

I'll be lurking from time to time, probably every day for a while seeings as i'm hopelessly addicted to this forum.

Hatsudai · Post by **Hatsudai** » Sat Oct 07, 2006 1:20 pm

specialk · Post by **specialk** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 9:12 pm

Hi Ollie! Did you win your geeky computer game competition? lolol
You will be happy to note that I gave myself the night off on Monday, chilled the fuck out, listened to my new cd, got drunk bymyself and fell asleep in front of the tv. I was just sticky-beaking around this forum...who the hell are all these people? Hmm, I think I need to start going out!! Love K

cha_chaos · Post by **cha_chaos** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 9:14 pm

specialk wrote:Hi Ollie! Did you win your geeky computer game competition? lolol
You will be happy to note that I gave myself the night off on Monday, chilled the fuck out, listened to my new cd, got drunk bymyself and fell asleep in front of the tv. I was just sticky-beaking around this forum...who the hell are all these people? Hmm, I think I need to start going out!! Love K

hello specialk, these peeps are some of the raddest peeps in melb

specialk · Post by **specialk** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 9:30 pm

oh, hi. I don't really know how to use this forum, website, whatever, im not very good with technomology..

kronz · Post by **kronz** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 9:34 pm

Keep it real mecka.

I'll see you soon (as always).

specialk: peeps=people and i am the radest of them all just ask mecka. LOL

specialk · Post by **specialk** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 9:41 pm

i know what peeps means!! I'm not that out of it!! Mecka is just being a sooky la la, he'll be back soon enough..how do i put a photo to my name?

cha_chaos · Post by **cha_chaos** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 10:02 pm

Go to "Profile" at the top right of the page, it has to be max 80x80 pixels and 20 KB

specialk · Post by **specialk** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 10:22 pm

oh dear...I'm in a pickle. I got the image to 80 pixels but dont know how to make it only 20kb?

deviant · Post by **deviant** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 10:25 pm

gaz · Post by **gaz** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 10:43 pm

loldeviant i bet you didnt know how to do that once.

Try saving it as a .gif

specialk · Post by **specialk** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 11:00 pm

yay!!! thanks gaz! Now i just have to make it a little clearer and find a good photo!

Lauer · Post by **Lauer** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 11:01 pm

Didn't notice this until now. Hope everything works out for you bro. Take care!

deviant · Post by **deviant** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 11:09 pm

gaz · Post by **gaz** » Tue Oct 10, 2006 11:27 pm

^ haha i'm keeping this

Rob M · Post by **Rob M** » Wed Oct 11, 2006 1:51 am

Good luck man!

A lot of life's triumph's come from facing what's already in front of you. The challenge is moving through it with your hand on your heart and a beat in your step.

You walk among dreamers. But never tread softly on your own dreams.

I for one haven't met you, or most of the peeps here, but i know for a fact you have lifted many a day for me by posting something of significance even though it may not have seemed like it at the time.

The future is bright. Stay solid. Enjoy the time off in the sun.

Bonjur.

nic · Post by **nic** » Wed Oct 11, 2006 1:22 pm

(OT:ROFLDANGAZ)

Fents · Post by **Fents** » Wed Oct 11, 2006 1:55 pm

i want bpmbjack to post

kronz · Post by **kronz** » Wed Oct 11, 2006 2:20 pm

Fents wrote:i want bpmbjack to post

full on

Direkt · Post by **Direkt** » Wed Oct 11, 2006 2:21 pm

Catch ya round Ollie... good to see u the other night!

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